The title is the best way to begin this. Best way of starting it is I was not overweight until I hit 3rd grade. I played sports, Football and Hockey, but I will still overweight. I smoked from 15 until I was 34. I wasn’t a heavy smoker, 2 packs a week at most, a good chunk of people who smoke found it harder and harder to find places to do it. But I did. I started vaping when I was 33-34, and that helped a lot.
Until I found out that vaping was only marginally safer, and i was putting 3 to 4 times the nicotine into my body everyday. I quit vaping in 2017..no more nicotine.I’ve had high blood pressure since I was in my 30’s. A emergency situation occurred and I went to the hospital. They didn’t tell me how high it was, but it had hit 230/120….I’m lucky I didn’t have a stroke. Been on a variety of blood pressure drugs ever since.The weight took its toll on my back, causing sciatica.
Had to start taking Tramadol for pain, and getting steroid shots. Sides of my legs are numb due to the nerve damage.Because of a mixture of all the crap I took and the stress my body was going through, my mind went as well. I started to have panic attacks. So I was put on a steady mixture of Xanax and Hydralizine. It helps. but eventually I’ll have to stop, being on Xanax for extended periods is dangerous.And I’ve had sleep apnea and been treating that with cpap for 8 years.
Can’t sleep without it.I’ll be 41 this year, im wearing compression socks to keep edema from my legs, I have issues in bathrooms (people here should have an idea) and I’m tired. Tired of clothes not fitting, tired of turning to food when things get bad (it used to be smoking or drinking…not sure what’s worse) tired of worrying about dying early, and tired of the stupid cravings and rationalizing I do when I eat poorly or too much.This is my first post here. I’ve done enough damage to my body that even If i turn this around, I’ll probably die of a heart attack or stoke before I reach 60. I can’t stop all the damage, but I can start to mitigate it.I hope to celebrate my 15 wedding anniversary in Japan with my wife, and I hope to be fit enough to travel in 2021. Right now though, I worried about just trying to survive, get under 400, then 350, then 300, and maybe hit that magic 250, my real goal weight.This is my first post. I have the tools I need to do this, but I have never asked for help or encouragement until now.
EDIT: Thank you everyone for the encouragement. I will do my best to respond to everyone who asked me something.As someone who has been fighting this off and on most of their life, I do know what worked for me in the past, I also know what derails it.Many people have pointed out Weighing and Measuring my food, I’ve done it in the past, and I have good food scales. Recording my intake. I regained the weight when job stress reached a breaking point and then I lost my job, and I’ve been unable due to the depression and rejection from other job applications to get back on the horse. I’ve resolved to get back on and stay on.